Restlessness at 1am? Solution (?), --listen to music and try to attempt to forget that inundating wave of unease that has encompassed and is sweeping the shores of my life with its poisonous, ravenous reach. There's got to be a profound purpose and meaning to this life....why haven't I found it yet? In the meantime it's Mr. Saxobeat....and though music and other surface level distractors do little to serve us with truth or a path towards ...enlightenment, it's an upbeat bamboozlement from the underlying turmoils of the spirit, often times serving only as a means of blurring the strident incompatibilities of the material and spiritual realms which shall remain in states of despair. It is only until one amounts to immerge from the shadows of ignorance and into the expanse of awareness that this can be reconciled. It is only with awareness that one can seek to grapple with, accept and effortfully change those mannerisms which provide little to no benefit to the spiritual SELF, the "I" to which the mind, body, every limb and tendon, and other biological phenomenon unnaturally becomes associated with.
Why am I writing this? It is a result of a longtime struggle that continually presents itself as the symptom of dissatisfaction in my life, as I am sure may be the case with your very own, in fact, with every "self" who has ever lived existence as a human. It is a disease of the conciousness, one that society continually supresses, leaving the individual to suffer in complete and total isolation, fearing rejection, fearing criticism, fearing FEAR itself. This is nothing you aren't familiar with, but it may well be something you are avoiding, choosing to live in a state of denial with, like the vast number of those around you. I am opening up the discussion. I am guiding your consciousness towards awareness. It is now up to you to do what you will with this imparting.
Question? Comments? Contradictions?
